I think I might be a masochist..

Masochism is finding pleasure in hurting yourself… Not others. That’s Sadism. …I’m pretty sure.

Anyway.

I have hypothyroidism. Some symptoms of this stupid thing includes: depression, weight gain, sensitivity to cold, exhaustion.

I’m pretty darn positive there are others, but those are the ones that really stood out to me when my doctor was explaining this to me a few years ago.

I started taking the generic version of Synthroid and I was to get tested every 6 weeks. Well I totally suck at going to get tested…and taking meds everyday wasn’t something I was very good at. After a few years, and a few bumped doses, I started getting realllllly exhausted. I didn’t think much about it since I had been really stressed and not sleeping well.

SO.. I finally started sleeping well and calming down, but the exhaustion didn’t go away. I got tested and my levels were WAY off… or something. I had to change to “BRAND NAME ONLY” for Synthroid and they increased my dose again. I have to get tested again in about 4 weeks.

Here’s the deal: I’m still exhausted. I have no energy. It’s painful to be awake…and really irritating.

So what do I decide to do? Jam pack my schedule, of course, so I have little to no free time to rest!!

Brilliant, I say!

My fabulously intelligent schedule is as follows (Pizza Hut times are approximate):

Monday:
8-5 Work
6:30-8 Babysit cute niece

Tuesday:
8-5 Work
5-10 Pizza Hut

Wednesday:
8-5 Work
5-10 Pizza Hut

Thursday:
8-5 Work
6:30-7:30 Counseling

Friday:
8-5 Work
6-9 Class

Saturday:
9-12 Class
5-11 Pizza Hut

Sunday:
11-12 Church
5 + An hour soccer game somewhere after 5

Sooo... Yeah... If I think I'm dead tired now..... oh man... I'm scared to think of what I'm going to do in a couple of weeks..